In class my group partners were as usual pretty scattered and I felt like I had to get their attention. Tomorrow is going to be a farce.
That woman was out of town on an emergency visit of some kind, so I had time to take care of homework.
I went to the doctor and recieved the results of my blood test which was very good. Apparently I have a very low midichlorian count.
The doctor, a woman of no more than 45 years spoke to me about alcohol and drug use, saying that I was a heavy user. Hell I answered honestly, I guess she thinks I drink a lot. Told me that even though it doesn't really affect some peoples health so much, it can change who you are.
Or maybe, have an effect on who you are, I guess they're about the same.
Psychologically, right.
Somebody who's got all their shit together might still be pretty fucked up.
I think it's a little bit more tolerable, but also a lot more lonely to be sober depressed.
Drunk depressed is much harder to take, more intense, but you feel warmer.
I think I have the thinking part down, but I can't get the feeling part. I think it was the opposite before, and that it will be opposite in the future.